I have OCD issues with one interesting outlier: I tend to be easily sidetracked. When I am having a conversation, I will follow a different thought until its logical conclusion, and then I will return to the main discussion. Or, I will use the tangent to launch a completely different subject altogether. Part of this [...]
Many years ago, I performed a piece called Shedding Skins. It was about how as we mature, we change our beliefs. I had on different personae outfits that I shed as I did the piece. At the end, I recited a poem I wrote and stripped down to my panties. I left the panties on [...]
i have a twin in spirit
her name is Kel
i haven’t met her in person yet
but one day soon, i will.
she knows i am struggling
so she sent me a Sekrit Weapon
i can wrap it around me when i sleep
so the demons cannot get in.
she poured her heart and love
into every colorful square
i can feel her with [...]
I had a tough session today. My therapist told me things I did not want to hear, but they needed to be said. Let me be clear that my therapist cares very deeply about me. She also won’t put up with my shit. Which is good because I am very good at throwing out shit [...]
All right. Today, I am going to start by doing something I rarely do: I am going to pat myself on the back. I have a difficult time congratulating myself when I do something good, so I have decided to do that now. Here. In the first paragraph of this entry. I have two things [...]
First of all, I would like to say to the companies who spend a bajillion dollars on the Super Bowl ads: It’s not a smart idea to alienate a good chunk of your prospective consumers by creating such fucking misogynistic ads. Yeah, I’m looking at you, Bridgestone, for whomever the fuck Jim Nantz was pimping, [...]
I am incredibly sad right now.
I had to throw that out there because it’s the prevailing feeling I have. Well, along with the emotional fatigue, that is.
I can’t stop thinking about how my family is falling apart. And, right or wrong, I can’t help thinking it’s all my fault. Oh, I know it’s folly because [...]
I am an adult.
I wanted to start out with that because I don’t often feel like an adult, and I don’t always act like one, either. In addition, I don’t get treated like one in my family, especially when the whole family is together. Once the baby, always the baby, I guess.
Secondly, I am [...]
I got an email from my mother today. After imparting news, she informs me that after the ‘fun memories’ of my visit to Taiwan have faded, she and my father have gotten around to talking about me and my life. This is never a good thing. Never, ever, ever. She attached two letters to [...]
I was going to call this entry Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes, but I already used that title while I was in Taiwan. Still, it really is what I wanted to call this entry, so read on with that in mind.
I hate changes. I know that many people don’t like them, but I hate them. Part of it is [...]