Category Archives: Musings

Hello, Goodbye

Hello, bitchez.  It’s been awhile, hasn’t it?  Lots has happened to me since the last time I blogged, and I’ll try to sum them up in a thousand words or less*. First of all, I am single again.  Not going to get into any details on that.  I will say it’s for the best, but… Continue Reading

Truly, Madly, Deeply, Part V: Taking a Chance on Love

‘Lo.  I’m back with the fifth and final (I think) installment of Truly, Madly, Deeply:  JAZZ HANDS–er, a tale of a grrl and her ape.  Before I start, though, I have to regale you with a funny/cringe-worthy anecdote about my mother.  She’s here visiting for a month and a half.  She called two days before… Continue Reading

Truly, Madly, Deeply, Part IV: An Ode to Joy

Hello! You know the drill by now. Go read the previous posts of this stories, especially part III in order to be caught up with this thrilling tale of love, danger, espionage and–oh wait, it’s mostly about love. Where was I?  Oh yes, musing about having Idle in my life.  More on that later.  For… Continue Reading

Truly, Madly, Deeply, Part III: Love, Actually

Hello, my gentle readers.   Before we return to the enthralling saga of our heroine (moi) and her ape (Idle), I have a housekeeping note.  Astute readers will realize that I changed the title of this series.  Instead of attaching these new posts onto the old series, I decided they deserved a series of their… Continue Reading

Rape is a Four-Letter Word

Rape.  It’s been in the news a lot lately as the Republicans are trying to redefine it to chip away at abortion laws.  It’s also in the news because Lara Logan, a journalist from CBS, was separated from her crew in Cairo and endured a sustained sexual assault.   My fellow blogger over at ABL’s… Continue Reading

A Study in Contrast

A long long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away–oh, wait.  Scratch that.  Let me start again.  A long time ago, I was at an APLB (Asian and Pacific Islander Lesbian and Bisexual Women) conference in MN.  This was right after I came out (but several years after I realized I was attracted to… Continue Reading

The Tempus, It Fugits

I cannot believe how fast this year has sped by.  It seems like just yesterday I was standing on the edge of the Taroko Gorge and contemplating jumping off.  I had escaped death there many years ago, and I thought maybe it was my fate to die there. As I looked down, I was aware… Continue Reading

The Ugly Truth

It’s my father’s birthday today.  Or rather, it’s the day recorded as his birth.  October 1st.  His parents didn’t really know when he was born, so that’s the date they picked to put on his records.  I had forgotten about it until approximately ten minutes ago, and then I thought about what to do.  Normally,… Continue Reading

Dismantling Illusions

I am exhausted.  Mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.  My sleep has been even more sporadic than usual, and I even when I get sleep, it doesn’t make me feel refreshed.  I know it’s because as my therapist said, I’m doing some fucking heavy psychological work here.  No, she didn’t say fucking, but she implied it,… Continue Reading

Killer Compassion

It has been noted that I have not blogged in a bit.  Yes, this is true.  I have been dealing with some really heavy grief since my father’s last phone call.  That happened Friday morning, and I let the machine get it because I just couldn’t handle it.  He said he had made it home… Continue Reading