Ed. Note: It’s bothering me that in my tag cloud, Taiwan is as big as Alan Rickman. So, I am going to tag every post with ‘Alan Rickman’ until this is no longer true. Fun Alan Rickman fact: he’s been with his partner, Rima Horton, for 45 years. They are not married, and [...]
I have a few conflicting ideas running through my brain that I haven’t thought out completely, so I’m just going to dump them here.
By the way, Alan Rickman as the Caterpillar? Bring it. I love Tim Burton’s work, even when I hate the result (Big Fish, par exemple, even though it has the yummy Ewan [...]
I had taiji today. Wait, let me back up a second. In my last therapy session, I talked with my therapist about not wanting to let the flashbacks distract me. I have no desire to have any kind of real relationship with my father, so there is no reason to dwell on the flashbacks. [...]
I had therapy yesterday this week instead of tomorrow as usual. It was an unusually productive session. I will talk about it more in a minute, but first, I am going to bitch a second about how unfair it is that I can’t get drunk without feeling immediate physical side-effects–and I’m not talking pleasant ones. [...]
I have OCD issues with one interesting outlier: I tend to be easily sidetracked. When I am having a conversation, I will follow a different thought until its logical conclusion, and then I will return to the main discussion. Or, I will use the tangent to launch a completely different subject altogether. Part of this [...]
Many years ago, I performed a piece called Shedding Skins. It was about how as we mature, we change our beliefs. I had on different personae outfits that I shed as I did the piece. At the end, I recited a poem I wrote and stripped down to my panties. I left the panties on [...]
i have a twin in spirit
her name is Kel
i haven’t met her in person yet
but one day soon, i will.
she knows i am struggling
so she sent me a Sekrit Weapon
i can wrap it around me when i sleep
so the demons cannot get in.
she poured her heart and love
into every colorful square
i can feel her with [...]
I had a tough session today. My therapist told me things I did not want to hear, but they needed to be said. Let me be clear that my therapist cares very deeply about me. She also won’t put up with my shit. Which is good because I am very good at throwing out shit [...]
First of all, I would like to say to the companies who spend a bajillion dollars on the Super Bowl ads: It’s not a smart idea to alienate a good chunk of your prospective consumers by creating such fucking misogynistic ads. Yeah, I’m looking at you, Bridgestone, for whomever the fuck Jim Nantz was pimping, [...]
I am incredibly sad right now.
I had to throw that out there because it’s the prevailing feeling I have. Well, along with the emotional fatigue, that is.
I can’t stop thinking about how my family is falling apart. And, right or wrong, I can’t help thinking it’s all my fault. Oh, I know it’s folly because [...]